Thursday, November 02, 2006
wowzers!
I had to stop in the middle of every song because I forgot the lyrics, as seems to be the case when I perform in front of alot of people. So I feel pretty crappy right now, because I just made a fool of myself, which I suppose is good sometimes but this wasn't one of them.

Sunday, October 15, 2006
"Singing my song so nice just like you do"
Behold almost all the lyrics I have written over the past two-three years.
I figure I'm not actually do anything with them...at least not all of them.
I think of myself a bit like Beethoven, only coming up with small bits and pieces at a time, without the patience or direction to put them into something final, so if you can't follow things that's why.
I would like some feedback though on which ones people particularly like.
(and this totally makes up for the lack of posting in the past several months and a nice long distraction for people not wanting to do homework.)
Help Me
All these things I need to get out
All these things that need to be said
I can’t live until I do
Which means I might not be living long
I’m just a scared little boy
In a man’s world
I need somebody to hold onto
When mommy’s gone
I can’t say hello
It troubles me
Something’s wrong with me
(But being around) you makes my day
Makes me say I’ll stay
I just need a way to get out
Say what needs to be said
To somebody
To anybody that will understand
I’m lost here
Can’t you help me
Help me
I can’t say hello
It troubles me
Something’s wrong with me
(But being around) you makes my day
Makes me say I’ll stay
Death of Hannah Means and Aftermath
You left on everyone’s mind
An imprint we couldn’t leave behind
You turned away, said you couldn’t stay
Looking toward the floor and moving to the door
For a moment the stars went out
For a moment there was no doubt
You finally said goodbye
Let live and let die
The next day it was the same way
Scared us all and left your mark
You laughed at us in the blinding dark
For a moment the lights went out
For a moment there was no doubt
Selina’s Poetry(I did not write this)
Do you ever want to run away from your life? Pack your bags Tell no one Leave everyone you love behind. Do you ever wonder who you have become? A stable job A loving partner A life lived to the tick of a clock I lay awake at night Mind charging and pulsing With thoughts of escape Everybody is talking I am listening I know them from the inside They judge me from my outside Small and weak No feeling.
Sleepy hollow 3/4 time
my holiday away has become so grey
when there's a horseman at my side
take the winding way home
past the old log cabin
howling wind inside the beast
hungry for one more win
(Sleepy Hollow)
never know where you're going if you don't know where you are from.
(halloween stuff)
Sundays:
Tiger sprawling in the sun
fast asleep, his day is done
lying here, 'twas warmth he sought
the sun has made his tummy hot
one sad fact he overlooked
his brain is now completely cooked!
Since september it's gotten colder and colder.
There's less daylight now, I've nnticed too.
This can only mean one thing.
(The sun is going out)
In a few more months the Earth will be a dark and lifeless ball of ice.
(Dad says the sun isn't going out.
He says it's colder because the earth's orbit is taking us farther from the sun.)
He says winter will be here soon.
Isn't it sad how some people's grip on their lives is so precarious that they'll embrace any preposterous delusion rather than face an occasional bleak truth.
Koi (Fish)
Koi is a good name for a band
Crying all alone
sheets, cover blown
don't let your tears hit the ground
they'll find you
if you do
I'll be there for you
cry on my shoulder
take out your anger on me
let me be your punching bag
let me care for you
let me lift you up
look in to your eyes
and share your pain
help it wain
from your memory
affections unreceived
what's the point
i see
good bye
from me
Snow Drifts:
The days are fading away
the days are coming out gray
just take one, go out, lay
Dark Hearts astrew the sea
bleeding on paper, randomly
dark hearts, killing men
killing, killing all they can
they say, no other way
they say, it's the only way
I've searched mountains and the sky, valleys and hills
no fruit was found
but I'm looking for a blue rose
not tainted red by blood
Bloody, Tainted
Red blue
hearts and roses
all for you
When I comprise of this disguise
nothing's going to blow away
last week I confronted my enemy
it was so lovely
maybe again some day
when I a little less lonely
It's a one headlight way
a heart's apocolypse
everybody knows it's wendy
everybody knows it's true
everybody knows it's wendy
everybody knows but you
you turn away when she walks your way
no clue what to do
you're just a shy fool
mixed emotions
my reality and my perception are but a millimeter apart
it's only a backdrop to the rain
I said "how was your day"
I didn't care
just looked away
following your every ramble
nothing ever happens today
A deity finds you alone and shallows you down
fight what you can make them eat you feet to head
don't give them the crown
of having you dead
fingertip thingy
some chorus
I can't say what I wanted to say
when you get near to me
I can't do what I wanted to do
when I see you lookin' this way
The Fracture Hectic
Zeitgeist
Anywhere (Hard to Concentrate sounding)
I can take you anywhere
you could ever want to go
you just say but I don't know
I wait for you on the phone
I know you don't want to be alone
it's something in the air
something flowing through your hair
something I can feel and touch
something for which I care
i walked with my friend we talked around a lake
about the thing we knew and how we each grew
Life goes on
{D}eyes that fill up {?}the ocean
{Cadd9}sound that drowns in {G}the pool
{D}there's nothing left to be {?} taken
{Cadd9}by those that live to be {G}cruel
but life goes on, every day and every night
(Doctor My eyes Bchords)
i use negatives alot
why? there's not that much I've got
hey there dog
he's a friend
i call him calder
he's a friend of a friend of a man
and my friends that I rely on
go on on their own
Can you remember when
we used to walk (by the lake)
the sea
that was glistening
the lake
where I had drowned before
the river
flowing into
the ocean
I told you to jump in
but you looked and turned around
Mad man willie lives upstairs
marked by __________
he's got long flowing brown hair
when he was young he played along
gave it his all and took from none
now he looks back and sees his fault
the role he played, now he runs
The sea out in front
doesn't belong to me
I just need someone to
say that they need me
All the things that I do
All the way that I act
The real one is shining
right on through
I get up and look
I've wasted the day
go back to sleep
hope it's better the next day
BE WISE
be wise
you owe it to your life
and I can't help you if you die
Like'em
Love'em
See'em
It’s just me and my girl
And were going along
If I told you
You would know
And that’s all you need to know
Brooks
Over where herbie used to play
Then he passed away
Down by the brook
Nobody wants me
Nobody ever looks my way
And I just need to yell
“Why don’t you want me”
Just give me a chance
A shot at redemption
It couldn’t hurt if there’s a little romance
Only seen at night under the fiery moon
It shines bright where no other will sonn
It gives off a different heat than other lights
And is put out by the sun to retain its power
The flame is unknown
Therefore feared by the sun
The flame is exhausted
Moments after its glorious birth
It shall never return
Never remembered by any
Never cherished by any
It returns to nothing
Here it comes
The things you do
The things you say
The way you do it all
I only see it one way
You’re not first
You’re not last
You’re somewhere in between
And I can’ see what you mean
Here it comes
Don’t let it go
Don’t miss your chance
Homebound
I sit at home
And I watch the tube
I play my games and I kill the noobs
At Last
How would you feel if we took off our jaws?
And we just sat and looked toward each other
As we sit they’re defying all laws
That limit us to the ground and earth
You would live forever in that fading day
And I would wait for that day to return
So we can live together in our own way
But lives grow as long as the trees burn
Walking down the road to the store
I see you run down the alley
Round the corner by my door
Where you left your only key
I was just on my way
To show my love to you
And ask you to…
I’m seeing you everyday
This is how I will be
I see your picture on the wall
It makes me feel so small
Why aren’t you here
I can’t face this fear
We should always be
(baby just) you and me
I could never be that cool
Never be with you
Never stand by you
I need something for me
Something that can heal
All the pain that I feel
How can I ever be so great
When I don’t have the pain (when I have never had the pain)
When I don’t have the problems (when I have never had the problems)
I’ve got nothing to attain
26 minutes of reflection
I lay down on my bed
The fan turning around my head
I think about the life I’ve lead
And how it’s gone so far
Yearbooks on the shelf with
Pictures of my friends
And there’s one of myself
But there’s nothing about tomorrow
In my corner I cry sometimes
The things to come and what I’ve left behind
How do I know this is right for me
When I don’t know where I want to be
I wish I could go back
And do it all again
Take a few more chances
Make a few more friends
But that’s all over now
Medals put away
And the pictures on display
Calder and family
Pens scattered on the floor
Frantically trying to make amends
For what I did, how I was
Before I go away, today
Is there truly anyway to write
What I mean to say
Either way
You look at him
He looks at you
At this pint
You think to yourself
What do I do
His mouth moves filling the room
The silence lingers like a tomb
You construe in your brain
How this could be true
It never seems possible
Chiseled Eyes
There’s no one by my side
I’m all alone at night
Behold my chiseled eyes lies my chiseled inside
I don’t know what to do
You can see right through me
And the things I do
I don’t mean to do them to you
But I can’t help it
Sometimes these things just happen
That time I opened your door
And saw you standing there
Lamps with no bulbs
Chairs with no seat
Fish bowls with doors
This is where I live
You could live here too
If you wanted to
You can sleep naked year round
With no worries of what they’ll say in town
Ruggage through the trash and find your key
To freedom
I’ll open the door for you if you’ve lost it
You can’t get this back once you’ve left
So embrace it while you can
Fleeting moments in time
Catch them if you can
Echo’s Response
56 12
Make my night perfect
That’s what I need from you
There’s something about the way you walk
Something I saw when you said “I might”
It reminded me why I was here
And it reminded me that no one’s always right
Your biggest fear is the rescue you
The way it should be, yeah
I can take you far away, somewhere you’ve never seen?
Far beyond that of a movie screen
I can take you far away, somewhere you’ve never seen?
Give you more power than any queen
There’s something about the way you look
I see you move in slow motion when you ____
More obvious that something someone knows
Your movements flailing on the ground, ________
My biggest fear is the rescue of you
Strange how it’s the same
I can take you far away, somewhere you’ve never seen?
Far beyond that of a movie screen
I can take you far away, somewhere you’ve never seen?
Give you more power than any queen
Unreleased

Saturday, October 07, 2006
"Saturday Night"
It's 12:15 right now and no one is around. So fuck it. I'm going to start going to parties because regardless of how I feel about drinking it has to be better than this.
(this was actually written last week, lateness given forgiveness to me, yes?)
Saturday Night
Unreleased

Saturday, September 30, 2006
Yes or No
leave a comment and something may happen depending on which gets more!

Saturday, August 12, 2006
"Everyone's a little queer/ Oh, can't see be a little straight"
LOL
Pink Triangle
Pinkerton

Sunday, August 06, 2006
"Longtime Sunshine"
But on a brighter side "Little Miss Sunshine" is a movie to be seen. It's by far one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. End of Story. Go see it.
Longtime Sunshine
SFTBH

Monday, July 10, 2006
cows suck!
I got a new job and am exhausted after only three days. Painting houses isn't that easy but it's still pretty fun; well as much fun as you can have painting houses. I think what I hate about it is the 45 minute commute and the $10 a day it takes to get there and back home.
I found this. I thought it was pretty cool.
